Why am I being this confused? Why am I blabbering something when I am confused? Am I conscious of what I am blabbering? Well wait.. if I am conscious, will I blabber? If at all I blabber out of unconsciousness, how did things get into my heart? Is it because of me giving too much importance to very petit things? Why am I concentrating on things that doesnt need any attention from me? Why am I not concentrating on things that need more attention?
Why am I taking things to heart? Is it because am a heart-ruler? Why not I am mind-ruler? If I am a mind ruler will I ever change the notion I which I see and take things? Why am I giving so much importance to love? Is my love unconditional? If it is unconditional, will I ever worry for the meagre reciprocation I get for it? Why do I ask for reciprocation for everything? Why do I feel that the whole world hates me? If the world loves me why am I not knowing it? Dont I know the way how the world treats me? Or shouldnt I know the way how the world treats me? Is it my love that is spoiling me? Or is it something else? Can't the same love heal me out of this confusion?
Why am I not knowing my limits? Or is it that I know my limits and asking for me? Was I given too much more than I deserved? Or am I being given with not all I deserve? Am I worthy for anything? Is any qualification needed for any relationship? Do I possess it? Do I give more importance to relationships?
Why am I this emotional? Is it because am a cancerian? But why not I hide things as a cancerian does? Why am I giving too much importance to emotions? Why am I becoming a prey of it? Is there any problem with my tear glands? Why do I express it without knowing other's feelings? Why am I jumping into conclusions? Or it is my belief that makes me to jump?
Why am I comparing things? Dont I know each individual is different in their own way and each one is different in the way he/she is being seen/treated? Why do I long for things that arent mine? Why dont I long for things are mine and that arent with me right now? Why am I dependent on things? Dont I know that dependency will kill me one day? Or that its so special am dependent? If it is so special, am I possessive then?
Am I taking care of myself? Am I happy? Am I making sure that I make those who care for me happy? Do I know the reason behind why I am treating things so seriously? Do I know the way out? Can that one step change me entirely? Can that one step cost something worth millions? Or will it save many lives? If I take that step wont I become ungrateful? Why am I feeling that I am the end of the road without turning back to see how long the road is? Why am I not believing that love can overpower anything? Havent I experienced it? Or I dont want to take a risk?
Why am I complaining about things that arent mine? Why am I not looking at the beauty of things that I am blessed with? Is it only me who is suffering from all these things? Or is there someone else? Is he expressing things like I do? Is he hiding things? Why dont I do that then? If I hide things, will I stay true to me inner conscience even then? If I know only to express things, why isn't the world accepting it? Should I have to change for the world? Wont I lose my identity then?
Well.. well.. well.. knowing all these, have I changed? Or am I changing? "changing"? Is change a one second process? Then why do I say "am changing"? Is that the last mile connectivity to reach the destiny is lost? Or.. is it because I've analysed and changed, I'm blogging all these? Thought process continues forever..
Why am I taking things to heart? Is it because am a heart-ruler? Why not I am mind-ruler? If I am a mind ruler will I ever change the notion I which I see and take things? Why am I giving so much importance to love? Is my love unconditional? If it is unconditional, will I ever worry for the meagre reciprocation I get for it? Why do I ask for reciprocation for everything? Why do I feel that the whole world hates me? If the world loves me why am I not knowing it? Dont I know the way how the world treats me? Or shouldnt I know the way how the world treats me? Is it my love that is spoiling me? Or is it something else? Can't the same love heal me out of this confusion?
Why am I not knowing my limits? Or is it that I know my limits and asking for me? Was I given too much more than I deserved? Or am I being given with not all I deserve? Am I worthy for anything? Is any qualification needed for any relationship? Do I possess it? Do I give more importance to relationships?
Why am I this emotional? Is it because am a cancerian? But why not I hide things as a cancerian does? Why am I giving too much importance to emotions? Why am I becoming a prey of it? Is there any problem with my tear glands? Why do I express it without knowing other's feelings? Why am I jumping into conclusions? Or it is my belief that makes me to jump?
Why am I comparing things? Dont I know each individual is different in their own way and each one is different in the way he/she is being seen/treated? Why do I long for things that arent mine? Why dont I long for things are mine and that arent with me right now? Why am I dependent on things? Dont I know that dependency will kill me one day? Or that its so special am dependent? If it is so special, am I possessive then?
Am I taking care of myself? Am I happy? Am I making sure that I make those who care for me happy? Do I know the reason behind why I am treating things so seriously? Do I know the way out? Can that one step change me entirely? Can that one step cost something worth millions? Or will it save many lives? If I take that step wont I become ungrateful? Why am I feeling that I am the end of the road without turning back to see how long the road is? Why am I not believing that love can overpower anything? Havent I experienced it? Or I dont want to take a risk?
Why am I complaining about things that arent mine? Why am I not looking at the beauty of things that I am blessed with? Is it only me who is suffering from all these things? Or is there someone else? Is he expressing things like I do? Is he hiding things? Why dont I do that then? If I hide things, will I stay true to me inner conscience even then? If I know only to express things, why isn't the world accepting it? Should I have to change for the world? Wont I lose my identity then?
Well.. well.. well.. knowing all these, have I changed? Or am I changing? "changing"? Is change a one second process? Then why do I say "am changing"? Is that the last mile connectivity to reach the destiny is lost? Or.. is it because I've analysed and changed, I'm blogging all these? Thought process continues forever..
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