The precious moment

After a span of 4 years, I atlast spoke to my dearest friend/sister/guide/teacher.. Too many misunderstandings, ego clashes, fights, cold wars, blah-blah-blah, etc. that marked the end of a really beautiful relationship in my life!!

The realtionship with a person who was the sole cause for me entering AU. Her help during those last 6 months cannot be expressed in words!! It was like she was studying 12th once more for the sake of me.. Even now i remember how she used to guide in areas where i was totally poor.. Esp. those highlighting things.. Even now i remember how she scheduled my learning plans during entrance.. the days we discussed about everything.. something.. and even nothing!! The days she mocked at me.. The days she was teased at by me and my sister!! The days she used to tell stories of her college!! The days i watched her studying.. studying.. studying.. and jus studying!!! This gave me one of the moral supports, inspirations which made me perform better!! It was her guidance which made me set up an aim to outperform her!! Well.. I achieved.. And i decidate most part of wat i achieved to her as much as i owe to my mom, dad, sis and tution masters!!

I'm not still sure if that was the reason behind she stopping conversing properly after my counselling!! Something had really hurt her a lot.. Probably my last request.. which certainly could had been like an dictation to her!! I still search for the reasons for the start of the conflicts!! But i know the reason behind the prolonged (prolonging) cold war!! It's jus my ego.. and partly hers too!!! Too much expectations could also have been a reason behind rifts in that precious relationship!! And finally.. On 19th January 2003.. it came to an end!! An end so soon which i never expected to happen!!

The last 4 years was totally disheartening.. Am not sure if i took those incidents wrongly or they were incidental/concidental!! Something in me stopped me from pursuing further!! Call it ego?? Call it my character?? Call it my perceptions of things?? Am jus tracing it out!!

After getting placed in infosys, i made up my mind to sms her to inform her!! And.. Its a sms and not a call!! That was again my own bad character!! No sooner i sent the message.. I got a reply!! And the very next weekend when i went back home, i happened to see her!! Her facial expression.. with her face slanted by a few degrees.. eyes filled with happiness.. with her eyebrows a bit lifted.. a small smile at the end of her lips.. with she thinking..."en kitta padichcha payyan.. innikki place aahittaan.. i feel happy for him!!" ... [in shorter words.. they call it 'perumidham'in tamil]. i cud sense it!! But.. i gave no expression of sensing them all.. [again bad??!!].. but still i could remember how she reacted that day after seeing me with a job in hand!!!

Well..After these 4 yrs of cold war [as my dad called it yday!!].. I finally went to her and spoke to her!! It was
for congratulating her for she got got the "gold medal" in medical college this yr!! She has proved that she is
still the best in studies!! I still cudnt prove that i can perform without her!! [except my second sem.. the only
sem i studied well to know if can perform well without her help!!]. And.. finally... yday!!

After thinking a lot standing in front of her house.. I jus made up my mind to ring her house's calling bell!! To my surprise it was she who opened the door [usually its her father who opens it]!! She was struck for a second to see me infront of her house after 4 yrs!! Her "Hiiiii....." after a few seconds with a broad smile and same enthusiasm which she had years back, wounded my heart very much by showing me how bad i was/am!! I was totally lost!! I was searching for words to congratulate her.. Atlast i could find some bits and bytes from my garbage (memory) and congratulated her! Her childish "thank youuuuu..." is still lingering in my ears!! She even called me in.. call it my ego again..!! stopped me from entering in!! She was in all smiles on seeing me, which continued to be the same till i left the place after getting her wishes for my new job!! That moment when she was awe struck, filled with all happiness, smiles all over face, with much enthusiasm, and loads of words to speak... That very moment!! I loved it a lot!! Such a precious moment in my life.. as any other big event in life!! Jus like the moment when my sister got the district third rank in her 10th exams!! I would give anything to get that moment back!!

But.. By this.. has the relationship reborn?? Am not sure.. I've made my initiative again!! It's she who should take it further!! Hoping the old phoenix to die and have a rebirth..

P.S.: I would like to thank my close friend "Tiger" for making such a thing possible in life. If not she, I would have never made this crude attempt of going to my old friend's house!! She educated me to think positively and approach things positively.. She made me think right!!! Thanks a lot Tiger!!!

Professional Career

It's 3 weeks now since I started with my professional career!! The field that I yearned for the past 8 years!!! Software Engineer!! Though it sounds quite normal in today's world, it was then regarded as a much coveted job which sowed seeds in me... Today I'm proud that I achieved my dream, aim, goal, whatever..!!

On July 2nd, 2007.. I joined Starent Networks! As my senior said in his speech during the interview process.. 3 things are really good in this company!! 3 things which every software professional would long for!!

1. People - people are really good.. The way they treat the freshers.. the way they guide us.. the way they move with us!! Amazing.. Even the most experienced and most senior people move very casually with all of us.. I like this kinda work environment a lot!!

2. Work - working on cutting edge technology is really great!! that too working on something that is compatible with the specifications that are going to be used only after 2-3 years and by millions and billions of people is really amazing!!

3. Salary - I'm yet to receive my first month's salary!! anyways.. the salary is as good as any other leading software company!!

I find myself lucky to be in a good and demanding field!! I should put all my efforts and take the best out of me!!

Few new flowers...

I've been longing for her frndship.. Right from 2nd sem!! I never thot i wud get close to her.. speak to her.. tease her.. fight with her.. make her cry.. get a lot of help from her!! It all happened during march of last year.. Really a cute, highly motivated, vivacious, often forgetting, tooo mature girl with so much expressions in face!!! Her dances.. amazing!! Unexpected moments this time last year.. Became a lot close to her.. really unbelievable!!

I never that she would become my boss!! Saw her a couple of times earlier.. Happened to message her as an accident.. Friendship blossomed!! Ideas matched.. A really hard working, out spoken, enthusiatic, patient teasing boss!! Unexpected boss.. I became a good disciple to her teasings... and hard working a bit..

If this was last yr.. This yr... 2 new flowers..

I always dreamt of being a frnd of her for years.. So cute.. so childish.. at the same time a bit mature.. so puny.. so much expressions in face.. a really gooood dancer!! I never thot i wud even speak to her.. but.. after IV.. things changed.. starting knowing more abt her.. started liking her a lot!! Such an amazing character!!

I never wanted to speak to her.. I never wanted to move with her.. but.. situations changed.. i found her to be good.. good enough to have friendship with!! I started speaking to her.. A nice, out spoken, talkative girl with a sarcastic look [at times]!!.. Things are really changing in my life...

Summers have become springs to me these years.. New flowers in my garden!! I'm jus flattened by their fragnances.. Four years of silence has started speaking.. communicating.. chatting nowadays!! Still a month more to go.. waiting for new flowers in my garden.. New and peculiar ones.. Peculiar in their taste, color, fragnance!!

P.S. : I used to say "I hate girls!".. But.. that's self defensiveness as my frnds usually say!!! I cud realise that only now... !!!

Woo a woman!

Yesterday i happened to read an article in Metro Plus. About what to gift a woman.. Geetha Padmanabhan makes a big list...

• Hidesign bag
• sleek leather coin purse
• stylish clothes
• Ferrero Rocher chocolates
• flowers
• invigorating spa
• state-of-the art camera phone with bluetooth (precisely N-series)
• corkboard
• elegant photo frame
• comfy pillow
• bottled condiments
• gym membership
• DVDs
• cellphone holder with a shoulder strap or velcro loop
• travelling shoes
• mini purse to hold credit cards
• a 'bit' of cash
• your time - best gift

Hmm... what it takes for a man?? A small, cute, true smile in his ladylove's lips!! -- 'Priceless'

I could just think of 'Mastercard' add which quotes the price of costly things and ends with a tag - 'priceless!'

P.S.: To read the article.. The Hindu, Metro Plus, Pg.2, 'For a woman who has everything'!!

What is love?

I was wondering about this kind of 'relationship' for a long time. The reason being.. 'Every relationship in this world is as a result of some need. Only a few stays on even after the needs are satisifed!' Even the relationship between a mom and her child is for the reason that a woman wants to become a mom. The relationship continues even after the need is satisfied. The relationship between friends are for some reason. For e.g., doing projects, partying out, shopping, etc.. So does love!!

But then.. What is love?? In my perception, love is something divine... [not an usual dialogue]. In layman's language, as my ethics sir quotes, it is an umberalla virtue!! It encompasses in it care, affection, 'feeling' of doing anything and everything for the other, demanding things, controlled by and having control over others, sharing the joy, sorrow.. But then.. Very few realise the true real meaning of love!!

During school days.. Teacher would have taught us.. "Love thy parents.. Love thy neighbor!!". People take it differently and start loving the girl next door.. Here love stands for the chemistry-biology-history-geography-maths between a foolish boy and an intelligent girl or an intelligent boy and a foolish girl!!

But then.. U say u love ur dad.. mom.. brother/sister... and also.. ur lady love!! How come the meaning can differ between two different individuals?? Is the word "love" overloaded?? [as in oops!]. Well.. When u love ur parents, siblings and others.. Wont u love ur friend?? A friend of opposite sex?? [i cant use boy friend/girl friend for it stands for a different meaning.. which too is concerned with another overloaded meaning of love!!]. A girl can say "I love u" pointing to another girl.. But.. She cant say "I love u" to a boy who is her friend!! For the society.. the meaning differs!! Though neither she nor he would think so!! She could jus say "I like u!!".. where like stands for liking something in him.. his character, attitude, behavior, dressing sense.. watever!! Wat if i tell my friend, who happens to be a girl, "I love u!!"?? Will this society leave me to say so??

Why dont people think it as jus a feeling rather than some kind of relationship?? I know i've changed the meaning i've so far mentioned.. But.. love is a feeling rather than a relationship as perceived by many fools!! It's jus something like fear, anxiety, 'happyness' [inspired by the pursuit of happyness], joy, sorrow.. Whereas.. Friendship is a relationship!! Friendship encompasses love in it... Which when expressed in taken in a lot bad sense!!

And there are people who give 2 different spelling for love.. and two meanings also!! For them.. 'Love' refers to the chemistry-...-maths between two worthless stupids who have the feeling without knowing wat it is!! and 'Luv' refers to something between friends!! Hmmm.. Even oxford and cambridge couldnt provide such meaning.. The signature in a mail.. If it has 'with love'.. it's the bullshit.. If it is 'with luv'.. It's friendship!!!

And.. For Gautam Menon, director of Kaaka Kaaka, Patchai Kili Muthu Charam, he uses a different meaning!! If u had listened to Jothika's proposal to Suriya for the second time at the harbor.. She expresses a lot and says a particular english sentence too fast!! "I want to make love with u!!".. This is wat Sarathkumar often says to Andrea in PKMC.. Wat does he mean by love then?? Dont Gautam love his mom and dad?? The same thing with a woman who quoted love as a combination of affection and sex in kumudham!!!

Hmmm...

But there are people.. who want to avoid the word 'love' for these reasons!! One of my friends told me.. "Ennakku avalai pidikkum.. Avalai thaan kalyaanam pannikanum aasai padaraen!!.. But.. If u term this feeling to be wat many worthless idiots say as "love".. Am not for it!!.. " Hats off to him!!

Me caught in the illusions and delusions of the world.. For this worthless matter!!!

Doodling

Doodling - my fav past time!! Which i usually do during class hours!!! It is by this i lose a lot of things..!! But then.. This makes me happy!!!

Last sem i happened to draw a few hairstyles!! Hairstyles of girls!!!! Myriad of hairstyles only for them... A few of those i like a lot... A few i hate.. The picture above shows a combination of both!!

Paruthiveeran

First day first show of Paruthiveeran at Albert theatre!!! Really really amazing movie!!! Really had a nice time with the new hero 'Karthi'!! What a man he is !!! His acting.. his speech.. his mannerism!!! Really matchless!!! Being a new comer doing this much is really praise worthy!!! I loved his Madurai accent (much becoz it's my native [;)] )!! Also his dance!! Mainly in 2 scenes.. One after proposing his lady love. And the other for the 'kuthu' song when he comes back from jail!! Really he rocks... Of all.. I like his body language!! Exactly portraying a 'Sandiyar'!!!! His eyes speak a lot just like his brother 'Suriya'!! Lovely eyes!!! He has really lived his character!!

[ a snap with Ameer when he came to my college ]

The director... Ameer!!! (Another Madurai veeran!!).. Really really really has done a great job!! Enjoyed every bit of the film!! But then.. the climax was a bit much aggressive.. Could have very well portrayed in a bit polished way.. But.. He justified his stand when he came to my college!!!

And the photographer.. Ramji!!! He too has done his job well!! The first song depicting the 'Thiruvizha' is really rocking!! He makes us stand among all those villagers... And the heat in the village of 'Paruthiyur' is very well depicted.

Chittappu 'Sevvaazhi'.. Really rocks like 'Karthi'.. His accent.. His mannerism.. makes everyone believe that he brought up 'Paruthiveeran' from his childhood!! Really a very good job by him!!

And the heroine.. 'Priya Mani'.. Has acted in this movie only!! She too has done her part well!!!

I used to find flaws in sequences / scenes in every movie!! This movie is an exception!! Ameer has very well taken care of everything!!

Kurukshetra Photos

Atlast I uploaded some of the best photos of Kurkshetra finally!! Atlast I completed the job of the Official Photographer at K! I would like to thank Varun for giving me an opportunity to freeze the moments at such a great show!! As an amateur photographer I could experiment a lot with those 1500 snaps I took!!!

Here are the links for the uploaded photos

http://kurukshetra-photos.blogspot.com to see a slideshow of the pictures.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/kurukshetra07 to see photos with description.

Hope you people would see them and comment on my job soon!!

Copy directors!!!

Why have the music directors gone crazy?? It's a long standing unanswered question, "why are music directors copying songs from others??"... The best effort answer, if any, from music directors are.. "I got impressed by that piece of music!!!".. Hmmm.. The worst of all.. This small piece of music becomes the BGM for the whole song which finally becomes a hit.. Following are some of my analysis from recently heard copy songs...

Lets start with my fav.. A.R. Rahman.. Rahman used to copy.. I agree.. But then.. He is not like others.. He wont have the same piece repeated without any change like Deva or Yuvi...

Harris Jayaraj!!! The second best who tries to make music by adding all sorts of loopy music in his songs.. Finally.. Becomes a hit!! I really cant understand why he uses so many instruments for a simple song.. ARR should be praised for this.. He restricts himself to a max of 4 or 5 for all his songs..

And the recent one.. Everyone would have heard ARR's "Munbe Vaa" (is there anyone left without hearing this divine music???) and.. Recent release of Harris from Unnaale Unnaale has the song, "Mudhal Naal".. If u hear the starting of both the songs.. They really sound the same.. I dont know whether they were accidentally composed so by both.. Or.. They were accidentally copied by both from same source!!!!

And... If u hear "Lukka Chuppi" from RDB and "Vellai Pookkal" from Kannathil Muthamittal.. Same instrument.. Similar chords.. ARR, though sounds similar, its different and were composed at different times!!! But... the previous comparison.. Haiyo!!! Unbelievable!!!

But few more about ARR on his own copies.. It's very well known to everyone that ARR used the BGM of "Telephone Manippol" of Indian in Roja itself... And the latest one like this.. If u cud remember the BGM in Sillunu Oru Kaadhal during the Telephone scene where Bhoomi makes chanceless expressions, u cud identify "Kulichcha Kuththaalam" song from Duet.. But.. Are these termed to be copies as he has used his own music???

Next.. Thalaivar(?) Yuvi!!!! U dont need to ask about him!!! All his hit songs are mere copies of something else.. Mostly from spanish and french!!! Hmmm.. His song, "Oru naalil!!" from "kuppai"pudhupettai!!! He havent added anything to the base spanish song!!! The remix song is his addition of different instruments over it!!! And.. The worst of all.. He has copied his own father's song in Kaadhal Kondaen.. One of the BGM has Ilayaraja's one of the best compositions!!!

And.. I happened to see one fight scene in "Kizhakku kadarkarai saalai!!" (ECR.. tamil form!!!).. Its BGM had nothing but Navras music from Matrix without any change in music!!! I dont think the music director even had mind to recompose it.. Think he directly added that song to "Uhaa.. Ihaa..." sounds of fight scene for his BGM in his comp!!! Kudos to the (dunno-his-name) music director!!!

Why r these people like this??? Cant they make any good music without any copy??? Are they paid only for copying???

(Note: ARR is something really great!! Though he gets impressed by something.. He uses it only here and there.. Also.. The latest update.. His 3 songs.. "Khalbali", "Lukka Chuppi" from RDB and one song from Water have been nominated for Oscar awards under original music category!!!! )

Update: In para 4.. It's not 'Munbe Vaa' but 'Newyork Nagaram'. 'Munbe Vaa' also has similar chords at its start!! But 'Mudhal Naal' is a copy from 'Newyork Nagaram'.

Need a nail cutter??

Last month i got a mail regarding my looooong nail!! It was from Nibaldi of Germany!! Here it goes..

Hi Sriram,
I saw these 2 pictures of your long thumnail. I like it. Very cool.
Why did you grow it?
Why didn't you grow it longer?
Will you grow it again?
Did you ever think about to grow all of them that long?
I really like such long fingernails.
Best wishes,
Nino

And then.. Few Scraps in Orkut.. To cut my nail!!! The problem is none is willing to sponsor me a nail cutter [;)]..

No. 1: [This is actually an anonymous person!!]

do u need a nail cutter...coz i think u do... This is scary man...

No. 2: [Gudiya]

And yeah u do need a nail cutter.. or atleast a change in pic..

(This is jus because i have my nail picture in Orkut as the profile photo!!)

And many more.. !!!

So am a bit confused now.. This is my third one!!! Am i to cut it down or leave it as it is??? And the biggest problem is am used to it!! I cant even pick a paper lying on the floor without that nail.. Its pretty hard for me to survive without that nail... !!!

Kurukshetra Again!

Yet another poster for Kurushetra to be sent all over India for external publicity!! Searched a lot for the background image.. Finally ended up with the same 'Bitzkrieg' image!! Spent some 4 hrs for this poster.. Finally things came out well with a sprain in hand!!!

Agni

Anna University's intra college culturals has successfully started today with 'Sillunu Oru Kaadhal'!! My poster for Agni had a different thought.. Started working at it with fire and flames.. Finally ended up with a calendar to note down the schedule!! The best thing i like in this poster is the '* restrictions apply [;)] ' .. Jus to inform people not to be too happy to watch it as it may have to cross many censor boards before getting screened!!! Luckily nothing got censored today!!

Kurushetra!!

Atlast i started working for Kurukshetra!! This is the first poster i designed for it.. Someone came with a different idea.. I accepted the job of realising his thoughts.. luckily it came out well!! Well.. A lot more to go in the months to come for this event!! Hopefully i meet everyone's expectations in my college..

Atlast a dream come true...!!!

It was an unique day!!! Not jus for the rhyming date...

06.09.06

But.. this unlucky man got a dream job luckily!! Ya.. I got a dream job at IVY CompTech Ltd. A company based in Hyderabad.. Mainly based in online gambling gaming for PartyGaming.com!! I still cant believe that i got one.. My aim was to get short listed.. Ultimately i got placed.. Hmmm.. Now i realise.. I too have some luck!!

Photoblog launched...

A weekend back at home.. Enjoyed every moment.. Went to Hawa Valley!! A pleasant ride in a cool weather... Enjoyed chatting with school friends after a long time.. Teased almost everyone..

Hmm.. Didnt have mind to return back!! But i had to!!!

Today, i've started my photoblog...

http://amateurlens.blogspot.com

Do view my snaps and give valuable comments so that i can improve....

A Series of Unfortunate Events!!

After a long time.. got some time to scribble something here.. Actually was sincerely preparing for my dream job.. But.. 3 year dream is still a dream!!! Lost Microsoft for no reason.. Did the written too well.. All bugless coding.. My month long preparation helped me a lot.. But.. wasn't shortlisted.. I took long for me to figure out that MS ppl were keen in shortlisting ppl who dint code or who doesnt know to code.. All those studs who jus wrote the algo or who dint write anything or who wrote bugless code got selected!!! My fate rulez...

Then.. 2 days back.. I lost my mobile.. My sexy mobile.. My sole companion.. Lost it in a fraction of second. Actually i was tooo tired and had a nap for 10 mins keeping my room door open ( as always.. ) . Within that 10 min time someone flicked my mobile.. Had some 200 contacts.. 30 ringotnes.. 10 nice messages.. sweet and bitter memories.. everything lost.. hmmm... Still fate is playing...

Today.. tried registering for PeP 2007... But cudnt... 404 Error for me alone.. Others cud register though!!! Fate continues..

17th July ... Lost Microsoft!!
19th July ... Lost Mobile!!
21th July ... Cudn't register for PeP 2007!!!

Hmmm.. How lucky i am!!! I've started smiling at these rather crying.. I've started laughing a lot on seeing me in the mirror!!!

Error : The word 'selected' in the para regarding MS interview refers to 'shortlisting' for first few rounds and not the final selection. The finally selected ppl are extremely good coders. But the thing is, few more coders lost their chance of getting into MS to those who didnt do well.

My first salary!!

Today is very special!! Not only because the date is
20.06.2006..

But also i got my first salary in my life!! Rs. 1613 for 10 days of working in Flextronics. Though the amount is meagre, earning something by working is great according to me.. Am too happy today!!!

Also my friend Shyam got placed in CTS!! Too happy for him tooo... Think CTS is gonna start a city for its employees!! He took some 572 from our college alone.. Infy too rocked as well with 596 two days back!!

Powered by ME!! Driven by VARUN!!

Atlast.. One of my dreams came true today!! Infosys is (un)lucky to take me.. yeah!! I got placed in INFOSYS!! And from now on, i'm an INFOSCION!! A very very easy written.. Followed by a really arguing toooo coool, so called, interview!! Atlast.. i'm there in the audi.. among some 596 students!! Such a precious moment in life.. Seeing all my frnz be with me there in the audi!!

And the most happiest thing!!! My Best Friend SAKTHI too got selected with me!!! Am too happy now!!! I thank all my family members, frnz, seniors, relatives for making me achieve this!! Esp. my friend (and others' placement rep) VARUN!!!

So its jus... "Powered by ME!! Driven by VARUN!!"

And atlast.. It Works!!!

Atlast.. It works!! The registration for our campus placements started today!! My sem long work in designing a proper query engine handling thousands of records will be put to test within a week.. Hope everything works well!!

I still remember the days.. No sleepless nights.. spent in designing/coding this!! How many fights.. How many misunderstandings between me and Siddaarth.. How he made Varun to speak to me so tat i complete it.. ( I did this just for the sake of Varun!!) How many testings... How many bug corrections.. (the last one some 2 days back..!!). How many editings... How many innovations.. How many requirements.. I still cant forget them!! But those sleepless nights.. Feel they were nothing when i feel my work is going to be put to work to sort some 4000 odd records.. This is gonna sort and list them for the companies!! As Siddaarth says.. "Life of 4000 people is in this software's hands!!" .. oops! Not hands.. but codes!!!

Liar Liar

Cellphone has become a part of everyone's life today. Life without cellphones is much artificial nowadays. And saying lies in cellphones is a part of the fun that the technology offers us!!
But, the same habit, if it cultivates while speaking over landlines? A big comedy would surely happen...

Tat day i was supposed to go to Collector's office (ennatha thaan kazhattuvaaro theriyalai .. ;)) to apply for my Passport.. My friend who had applied for it said that he'll accompany me to help me! He asked me to start by 9'o clock so that i can pick him up in his house and get there by 9.30..

As planned he got ready at 9.00. But i dint get ready till 9.30!! It purposely delayed getting ready for he used to make me wait for long... !! I got a call from him atlast... He asked me where i was.. I spontaneously replied that i was riding my bike and will reach him in another 10 minutes! His sudden reply, "Oh! U in bike?? Tat's why u r attending the call from ur LANDLINE-a??" ... What else can i say to him then??