Ulcer!!

Yesterday.. It so happened that I started realising the symptoms of Ulcer!! As many of my friends were much eager to know when I get ulcer, I started pinging them and informing the same.. The response!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!! Avalo thittu!!! Why blood?? Same blood!!

Thittu 1: From one of my sisters!!

Me : hmm
Me : atlast..
Me : i won!!!
YYY : ?
Me : i got ulcer!!
Me : why dont u congratulate Me???
YYY : do fasting for few days.. it'll be perfectly alright
Me : oh grt!!
Me : wat abt bfast???
YYY : not even water
Me : thats good..
YYY : for 2 weeks
Me : but then..
Me : i do water therapy daily..
Me : i cant stop that ..
YYY : be sure to reserve a bed in manipal hospital
YYY : better reserve in advance
YYY : and go ahead with the fasting
Me : am not sure if i wud live till that even

YYY : paavam unga oorla doctor panjam polirukku
Me : too many chocolates
Me : doctor yaen izhukkarey???
Me : i dont go to doctor..
Me : for i hate doctors
YYY : keep it up

Me : bfast ku nalla item sollu..
Me : i must start from tomo atleast
YYY : cornflakes
Me : i hate that
Me : !!!
YYY : aval
Me : aval??
Me : wat do u do with that???
YYY : soak it in water
Me : then??
YYY : eat it with milk.. add soMe sugar, banana, and perhaps soMe dry fruits if u want
Me : oh ok
Me : wat abt oats???
Me : white oats???
YYY : tats also good
Me : US ppl r eating this only
YYY : indha bandhakku onnum koraichalae illa

Thittu 2: From Kilu.. He started giving me a list for a balanced meal even!!

Me : kilu
good news
!!
Kilu: enna da?..
Me : ellaarum romba varushamaa ethir paarththadhu
ennakku ulcer aarambichchaachu!!
Kilu: ennathu?..
enna da solra?..
ada paavi
olunga saapidarathillaya>.
Me : second boil in my mouth within one month!!
Kilu: adangokamakka..
Me : olunga saapidariyaa vaa???
hmm
enga saapidaraen..
last sunday and the sunday before that..
Kilu: daily oru velai thaana?..
Me : nothing i ate!!
Kilu: ada paavi yenda ipdi?..
Me : oru vaelaiyae doubt aa irrukku!!
therila..
pidikkalai
saapidalai..
Kilu: poda loose naaye
Me : naanga ISKCON pona annikku..
kaaalaelaendhu nite varaikkum onnum saapidalai
Kilu: yenda oruthan sapida koodava solli kuduppanga?..
summa nalla sapidarathilla?.
Me : aduththu naal madhiyam thaan saapittaen.
adhuvum konjoondu
Kilu: epdi da irukka?..
Me : hmm
Kilu: udambu enna da pannum?..
Me : edho surviving
Kilu: paavam athu..
naaye
Me : hmmm
:)
vidu vidu
Kilu: cha enna sampathichu enna da panna loosu..
olunga irukkurathu illla..
Me : u know..
i dont care for money,...
Kilu: athu rite da
Me : sambadhichchu saerhthu vekkaradaellaam kidaiyaadhu
Kilu: aanaa konjam vayitha kavanichu ko da..
very bad da..
unnai yara kaasu pakka sonnathu
konjam kuninju vayira paaru nu thaana solran
Kilu: yethavthu exercise pannu
Me : innikku thaan wiki la padichchaen..
Kilu: nalla saapdiu
Me : ulcer can lead to cancer!!!
:o
Kilu: apam ellam yosi
adangoniya
Me : hmm
saw the sysmtoms..
*symptoms
one is.. stress and strain!!
adhaan eppovuMey irrukkey
:)
Kilu: sari varathu da..
nee bus pudichu ootuukuu oodu
ingana iruntha
ipdi than thiriva
de konjam yosi da.. ipdi iruntha yethayum confident ah panna mudiyathu da..
Me : ootukku odi
Kilu: romba kadupa irukkum
Me : enna panna???
maadu Meikkavaa??
Kilu: yennavathu panni udamba thethu
Me : blore la thaan irrukkanum nu vidhi!!
ippadi irrukkaradhaala thaan tension..
short tempered ..
ellaaMey..
Kilu: de i told for soMe ten days
Me : adhuvum theriyum..
olunga saapida pidikkalai..
reason..
stomach full of poochchi!!
adhu naala..
saapaada kandaaley veruppu thaan!!
Kilu: appo first atha sari pannu
Me : onnum panna mudiyaadhu
poochi ku reason..
chocolate..
Kilu: :)
onnum panrathukilla
Me : chocolate saapidradha niruththalaam na..
Kilu: control panni than aganum
Me : saapidaama irrukkum podhu calories kudukkaradhey.. chocolate thaan!!!
total cycle!!
enga thaan naan break pannuvaen??/
:(
Kilu: ada poda venna
first chocolate cut pannu
Kilu: daily twice milk
Kilu: morning yethavthu
Kilu: bread sapidu
Kilu: mathiyam rendu chapath
konjam rice
evening oru juice kudi
nite konjam rice plus milk
Me : ellaam rite thaan
edhuvum inga panna mudiyaadhu..
appadi oru nilamai.
Kilu: hmm
Me : olunga saapida aarambichchaen naa..
ellaam sari aahidum..
short tempered poirum..
Kilu: :)
Me : mugaththula paru poidum
body perfect and healthy aa irrukkumm
Kilu: ada cha naye ellam nalla sollu
Me : ha ha ha
ellaam theriyum daa..
enna panradhu..
saapida pidikkalaiyae
innikku naan irrukkara nilamaikku...
Kilu: nee ellam inga irunthirukkanum da.
Me : shuttle bat kooda pidikka mudiyaadhu..
:(
Kilu: annan sapiduathula pathi sapitale nee elam theriduva

Thittu 3: Sribalaji.. He was expecting this for 4 yrs!! He was so happy to know it!!!

Me : Balaji
solla maranduttaen....
ulcer ennakku vandhaachchu..
Balaji: !!!
Me : hurray!!!
Balaji: aana ippa onna malar hos[ital kootittu poga mudiyathuu...
Me : hmm
Balaji: unakku manipal !!!!
Me : vidu vidu
hmmm
malar o mani o

Thittu 4: Siddaarth.. This was a kinda spiritual scoldings!!!

Me : good news dude
ulcer has started!!
Siddaarth: olunga saapdu ..
Me : hmmm
Me : ennikkaachchum manipal la admit pannuvaanga..
Siddaarth: hmm

Siddaarth: dei ..
life-la udamba kooda paathukkaama irunda vera enna irukku?
reMember one thing ..
indha udambu is not yours ..
its just a tool given by God to experience the earthly stuff ..
u can mis-use it or mis-handle it ..
adha olunga paathukkanum ..
Me : hmm
correct thaan
panraen
Siddaarth: enna panra?
life-la evlovo kashta padura ..
Me : olunga saapidaraen
vaera enna panna mudiyum??/
Siddaarth: konjam kashta pattu udambullu konjam saapaadu podu ..
Me : life la enna kashta padaraen??
sogusa thaan irrukkaen
Siddaarth: adhu daan nee panra modhal punniyam ..
adha sollala ..
dailyum polambaraye??
adha daan sonnen
adhu kashtam illaya?
Me : polambal
adhellaam naanaa ennakku pannikitta kashtam..
Siddaarth: nee edhukku da maarara?
take care of ur mind n body ..
if u dont u r not respecting God
Me : hmmm
maaraley naa..
oruththanum ennoda irrukka maattaan
maararadhu kashtam
Siddaarth: if u dont u r not respecting God

Uff!! Result : I started taking breakfast after 4.5 yrs!!! [:(]

Will I ever hear it??

I happened to copy a song to Sansa c250 from my laptop running Windows Vista Home edition. Just like copying multiple files to the same flash disk (pen drives) at the same time, I happened to copy this 'Rang De Basanti' to this flash disk. Omg!! All it popped was an usual copy dialog with an unusual message!! It said it would take about '46068 days and 19 hours' to complete the transfer!!! Will I ever be alive to hear it in Sansa c250 ???

Tiger

On my sister's birthday, today, I gift this Tiger to her - for she likes "my tiger" a lot!!

As usual this took hours for me to complete.. And hours for me to darkern the lines... To the say the truth.. I got too immersed in darkening and found that my pencil had become half its original size only at the end!! Anyways it has come out well!! Am really thankful to my extra dark Apsara pencil... [;)].

When I was darkening the lines, I felt the need of Flash!! Flash is really awesome in that aspect.. You just click on a line.. The whole continuous line gets selected.. Then it is a just a matter of changing the thickness in a small box associated with line properties!! Similarly the color of the lines tooo... Jus at the click of a button!! But here.. manually shading and darkening the lines is really painful.. Softwares have enhanced the art a lot.. there by spoiling the originality a bit even!! [;)]..

The biggest thing I was too scared about was the eyes!! Right from the day one when I started drawing, my mother always asks me to draw the eyes at the end... And also to concentrate on it.. As.. In art.. Eyes speaks much than anything.. Its the eyes one should take mare care of.. I was praying that, this ferocious animal's eyes should bring in fear!! Happily I came out well!! I like the small twinkle in its eyes.. Awesome really!! In my own slang.. "Gumaaltic-a daal adikkudhu!!!". What if I had drawn it in such a way that it made this tiger laughing?? [:(]

But when I compare this with "my tiger".. Well.. my tiger's eyes always smile.. It's been said that my tiger smiles even during sleep.. I dunno.. I need to confirm that!! [;)]. But too many possibilities of it to happen as it smiles for every other reason!! Comparing this tiger with mine, I could find one more thing different.. The fat content.. Well.. This tiger seems too be like walking after a heavy meal!! My tiger.. ipch... too lean... a malnutrition baby it is!! So sad!! I tried all possible measures to make it fat.. Ipch.. No way it seems.. A lean malnutrioned smiling Tiger it is!!! Hey.. The tail... mine is longer!! I mean.. my tiger's is much longer than this one's!!

Mottai Kavidhai

Disclaimer: I am not cared of the state of the reader after reading this mokkai!! Its the sole responsibility of the reader to restrain himself/herself from this!! Hmm.. Its just.. Vairamuthu 'kaettaar!!'.. Naan 'illai' nu sonnaen!!! Avalo thaan!!

Alli anaiththida aasaiyum illai
thulli thirindhida thunichalum illai

katti thazhuvida kaadhali illai
vittu vilagida vazhiyum illai

kondru kuviththida porkalam illai
nindru jeyyiththida pottiyum illai

etti midhiththida erichalum illai
aera ninaiththida yaekkamum illai

otti uravaada oruvanum illai
kotti kuraipaada kovamum illai

vimmi azhithida vishiyamum illai
pammi bayandhidha bayamum illai

vetti muriththida vaelaiyum illai
neeti nimindhidha nimmadhiyum illai

sandhi siriththida seidhadhum illai
sattai kizhindhidha thirindhadhum illai

vaazhththa ninaiththida vaarththai illai
veezhththa vaendiya avasiyam illai

mathiyil uraiththida maanamum illai
mandai kuzhambhida moolaiyum illai

thooki erindhada thunichchalum illai
baaki vaiththida pazhakkamum illai

naaku varandida pesiyadhum illai
saaku sollida saanakyamum illai

isaiyil mayangiya idhaiyamum illai
thasaiyil koodiya kozhuppum illai

kottiya mazhaiyil kuliththadhudum illai
vettiya uravil inaidhadhum illai

nagaiththu pesida naattamum illai
thigaiththu nindrida thiruppamum illai

kattru thandhida kavingnanum illai
pattru payindra pidikkavum illai

illai nu solla edhuvum illai
idhilae edhuvum unmaiyum illai !!

Ponna Porandirukkanum

Last time when I went back home, I was "busily" browsing over the net.. Too bored.. I entered into the troubling/fantasizing/alcoholic/useless area - Orkut!! I started reading my sister's testimonials!! In one of them, someone had said that she is continuing to be a topper in college too!!! Suddenly I turned to her, gave a bewildered look, and asked her.. "Su-ru-thee... Ennadhu idhu??? College-layum topper-aah???" [:-o]. Her sudden and only reply - "Vidra.. Vidra.. Naan ponna poranduttaen!!!!" ... Well.. It gave me the answer!!!

A girl saying this suffices the existence and amount of partiality shown towards girls in schools and colleges!!! That's how life is!! That's the fate of guys!! Hmmm... We guys can never ever come up in these demoralizing places!! We guys can perform well only when there is no place for partiality!! Justifications.. In my set, none of we boys stayed toppers in school exams!! Just because of partiality!! But, finally in the 12th Public Exam... We guys scored better than girls.. Toppers, too many centums, high entrance scores only from guys!! Just because.. Partiality couldn't play any role there!!!

P.S.: For those who don't know.. My sister came out as District Third during 10th and Topper in School during 12th!!! Well.. To add.. She was the topper in school during 10th, 11th and 12th - in all exams!!! A girl of such a calibre admitting this is something to be considered very seriously!!

Karu Karu Vizhigalaai...

Last Friday I was busy doing my job hearing to my favorite songs.. Suddenly "Karu Karu.." song from '"Patchai Kili Muthu Charam" caught my attention!! I was just thinking what if Girish or Karthik or (my fav) Naresh Iyer worked in a software industry and got frustrated over their work and sang this song??

Karu Karu vizhigalaai.. En muzhigal ingu pidhunguthey!
Thathumbida thathumbida.. En kanavugal ingu vazhiyudhey!
Madhiyam urangaiyil.. Moolai mazhungi poguthey!
Ezhundida ninaikkaiyil.. Oru PR vandhu paaya...

Nee.. oru kalli chediyae!
Nee.. kuththum kulirey!
En.. vaazhvin vidhiyae!

Unnai thaedum kangal!!

Yaen.. nee ennidam vandhaai?
Mann.. madhiyai thindraai!
Naan.. azhuvadhai rasiththaai!

Unnai kollum kaigal!!

Pudhu pudhu varigalaai.. Enadhu codebase thinamum nirayudhey!
Kadamaigal kadamaigal.. Vandhu deadline thaandi vazhiyudhey!
Marandhida maarandhida.. En manamum konjam muyaludhey!
Marupadi marupadi.. En kadamai ennai soozha!

Vazhindhidum tin beer nee thaana?
Vazhukkidum paasam nee thaana?
Puyal tharum thendral nee thaana?
Pidungal nee thaana?

[ Nee.. ]

Oru naal oru naal.. endrey thinamum pogum!
Maru naal varumaa.. endrey manamum panaththai thaedum!
Naatkal oda.. kadangal ingae koodum!
Kaiyin raegai.. poley kaasum ingae odum!

Nirai illa.. vaazhkaiyilae.. indru seyyum pizhai pizhai..
Ullukkulley.. uchchukkotti.. thodarndhidum vaelai pizhai!!

[ Karu.. ]

Tom and Jerry

After a span of 8 years or so, I started drawing again.. To start with.. My favorite 'Tom and Jerry'!! Not drawing anything for these many years.. I just couldn't get few strokes properly.. Well anyways.. It was a nice start!! Took a long time for completing such a small picture!!!

After working on Photoshop for more than 6 years, I felt the need of many options while drawing this...

• undo
• redo
• copy and paste
• resize
• rotate
• move

Hmmm... Drawing on paper doesn't have these options!!! Ipch... [;)]

Weekend with Nokia 6300

Last weekend I happened to go home!! My sister had bought a new mobile - Nokia 6300 - and I was eager to view its features. After too much cautions, I was given with the mobile for some 10 minutes to get a brief overview of what the mobile is all about. Too heavy!! Too slim!! This is what I felt when I held it first on my hands!!

The display was too good!! An ad said it can show 16 million colors!! OMG!!!! 240 x 320 resolution was damn good!!! And the fonts and icons were really nice!!!

Started browsing the 'Contacts' section. Awesome!! You can store many details about a person in it!! Including a video which plays when he/she calls you!! Thats really amazing!! Think you had taken a video of your friend saying "Dei.. maapla.. phone-a edu da!!!" or your mom saying "Kanna.. Phone-a edu paa!!" and had it assigned with the contacts appropriately!! Awesome it will be!!! If you feel a video takes too much of space, you can very well have a simple photo of him/her which gets displayed when he/she calls you!!!

And then the 'Messages' section... Too good!! The phone has just 8 MB of internal memory but can house 1000s of messages!! My sister said she had 1000 messages in her mobile and the memory was still left for more!!! Thats really great!!! You can create folders and group them as well!!

And the 'Multimedia'... Too good to resist!! The songs clarity was really good to ears!! And the display of the player was nice!!! I processed all the ID3 tags and had a very good library of songs in both phone and external memory!! I couldn't test it with any video for she didn't have any video in her mobile!! And the 'Stereo speakers'.. haiyo!! Such a clarity!! Such a sound.. As good as my JBL or Altec Lansing speakers!!!!

And then the 'Camera'.. I wasn't that impressed with the camera in daylight even.. Probably because am a proud 'Sony DSC W-5' owner which sports a Carl-Zeiss lens!!! But then.. The 2 MP camera is good enough to take snaps on the go!!! A variety of resolutions to choose from!! So does the video option in it!!!

And then the games!! They were good!! The best think being you can add any flash game to your mobile and play it!! Awesome really!!! Since it has a flash player.. You can have your own flash files (*.swf) as wallpapers and screen savers. My sister wasn't aware of it. I purposely made a small animation of her name, sent it to her mobile and set it as the wallpaper and gave her!! She was in all smiles for the whole day!!!

It supported a browser - Opera mini!! It was good as for as the examples it gave. I couldn't test it for the lack of GPRS connection.

The greatest thing I liked in it was the Bluetooth!!! Awesome really!! And that too those activities I did with Nokia PC Suite and Windows Vista!!! Lost for words!! After explaining every feature of the mobile to my sister, she gave me the permission to test the bluetooth!! I initially attached/paired her mobile with my lappy and started transferring songs!! The transfer speed was really faster!! Songs got transferred in seconds!! I then downloaded the Nokia PC Suite software from the net for additional enhancements!!! I gave various options to browse and categorise contents in the mobile. You can even synchronize all your contacts with your outlook contacts or windows contacts easily!!! The best one it gave was that it added a Nokia phone browser folder to the My computer!! Opening which gave me the contents of the memory in the mobile as hard disks!! I was able to browse through the contents of the phone very fast and easily as I could browse any other hard disk on my lappy!! Awesome speed!!! Though not connected through a serial/parallel port!!! And the browsing folder had 2 buttons on its left for sending a message and creating a new contact easily!! I tried sending a message to my mom's mobile!! I gave me an editor.. where I used my '108 keys' keyboard to type a message unlike '9 keys' keypad. And then clicked on the 'To' button - which gave me the list of all available contacts - and selected my mom's number. Clicked on send!! It got delivered fast!! Think.. Typing a message so easily with such a big keyboard on your comp with all special symbols and sending it!!! Am just bowled over!! I tried making a call from it!! When I made a call, the phone started making a call.. Improper configuration of the in-built modem made the call to drop. I had no patience to debug it!!

After all these.. My sister started transferring songs from my lappy!! She never knew that I've enabled the audio gateway. After sending a song, she thought of testing it and played it. She was hearing the music at a distance. She got puzzled as the song was actually playing in my laptop's speakers!!! Such a clarity as if the song was playing from a location in my lappy itself!!!

Bluetooth is really nice!! I've started loving it!! My mom - on seeing all these things - asked me to buy a similar phone!!! Earlier I got no permission so easy!! Scene pottey periya aal aahittome la!!!! [;)]

Will you cry??

Under Sruthi Kannan's pressure (?!), I started reading my second book!!! "Who will cry when you die?". Full of life lessons from Robin Sharma.. Too big for a small kid like me to understand actually!! [;)]. Though the title sounds strange.. The main crux is.. "When you were born, you cried when the whole world rejoiced!! Live a life in such a way that when you die, the whole world cries while you rejoice!!". And the author has tried to give 101 lessons to make a person like me perfect!! So sad of him!!! I failed in every lesson of his!!!

Atlast when I completed it, I was thinking of who will cry for me when I die!!! So sad again!!! No one will cry for me for I don't have any big impact on anyone [atleast as of now!!].

Too many questions in my mind after reading the book...!!! Am I living a life I wanted?? Am I good?? Am I cherishing all relationships?? Am I happy?? Am I living a life [first of all!!!]???? ... Hmmm.. My answers.. I think I answered them pretty early!!!! Looking for the answers.. to all my questions.. in my life!!!

And I still remember one incident that happened when I was reading this book!! I happened to call Tiger and told her that I'm reading a book with such a title.. She started scolding me on hearing the title!! Then I told the crux of it.. And told her, "the author has given 101 ways to be good!!.. I'm just trying to find in how many things I've gone bad!! So far I've read 43 lessons for life.. And sadly I'm bad with respect to all 43 chapters!!!" She guffawed for hours for no good reason!! I told my mom the same thing.. And she too started laughing!!! Is that sounding that stupid?? Omg!!

Total Damage Testimonial

Atlast came the most "total damage testimonial" from my sister... Hmmm.. Couldn't deny it as everything is true in it!!! [For those who dont have an orkut account.. Here it is!!]

Disclaimer:d followin testi is full of creativity n imagination.any similarity to thepresent life behavior of this person is purely ACCIDENTAL!! the writer is not responsible for it!!

ntro...evan thaan en annaen!! payyan paaka thaan cool..aana semayana tension party!!
sir-a paththi sila details!! seriyaana "bug"!! oops i mean "deBUGger"
"i hate girls" "i hate girls"nu sollittu thirivaan... yaarum nambaatheenga!! chumma udaansu!! ponnungalata pesarathellam pesittu, "ponnungale pidikaathu"nu scene poduvaan!!! evan taste paththi solliye aaganum!! dress supera select pannuvaan.. hold on.. naan solrathu avana thavara ellarukkum!! he jus explores everything new..except BOOKS!! creative minded.. short tempered.. good friend..[yaarum sandai mattum potraatheenga!! aprom naan ambael!!"naan pesava,venaama"nu "expert advice"gara paerla paada paduthuvaan!!] nalla payyan thaan..enna..konjam porumai,neraya kovam, athaan evan problem-e!! anyways..gud guy to hv friendship with.."GALS BEWARE!!"
2possessive!!but nice guy!

Nokia 6300 speaks.. sings.. shouts.. reports.. scolds.. dances.. and at times writes testimonials like this!!! [:((]

Tuesdays with Morrie

Atlast I was made to read a book!!! After a long time.. !!! And I happily started as it was an e-book!! The book, "Tuesdays with Morrie", is about an old man dying of ALS and his teachings to his student on the verge of leaving the world! This is a nice story... Fully philosophical explaining many dimensions of life.. The best one being "love"!! It shows ways of expressing love.. And the best thing i loved in it is this scence..

The old man, Morrie, has become dumb and his old friend has become deaf by the time.. Morrie was interviewed for a TV show where he was questioned "What would you do if you meet your old friend?".

“We will hold hands,” Morrie said. “And there’ll be a lot of love passing between us. We’ve had thirty-five years of friendship. You don’t need speech or hearing to feel that.”

I love these lines..

P.S.: Thanks to Sruthi Kannan for making me read this.. I became so involved that I went home early just for reading it!!!

The precious moment

After a span of 4 years, I atlast spoke to my dearest friend/sister/guide/teacher.. Too many misunderstandings, ego clashes, fights, cold wars, blah-blah-blah, etc. that marked the end of a really beautiful relationship in my life!!

The realtionship with a person who was the sole cause for me entering AU. Her help during those last 6 months cannot be expressed in words!! It was like she was studying 12th once more for the sake of me.. Even now i remember how she used to guide in areas where i was totally poor.. Esp. those highlighting things.. Even now i remember how she scheduled my learning plans during entrance.. the days we discussed about everything.. something.. and even nothing!! The days she mocked at me.. The days she was teased at by me and my sister!! The days she used to tell stories of her college!! The days i watched her studying.. studying.. studying.. and jus studying!!! This gave me one of the moral supports, inspirations which made me perform better!! It was her guidance which made me set up an aim to outperform her!! Well.. I achieved.. And i decidate most part of wat i achieved to her as much as i owe to my mom, dad, sis and tution masters!!

I'm not still sure if that was the reason behind she stopping conversing properly after my counselling!! Something had really hurt her a lot.. Probably my last request.. which certainly could had been like an dictation to her!! I still search for the reasons for the start of the conflicts!! But i know the reason behind the prolonged (prolonging) cold war!! It's jus my ego.. and partly hers too!!! Too much expectations could also have been a reason behind rifts in that precious relationship!! And finally.. On 19th January 2003.. it came to an end!! An end so soon which i never expected to happen!!

The last 4 years was totally disheartening.. Am not sure if i took those incidents wrongly or they were incidental/concidental!! Something in me stopped me from pursuing further!! Call it ego?? Call it my character?? Call it my perceptions of things?? Am jus tracing it out!!

After getting placed in infosys, i made up my mind to sms her to inform her!! And.. Its a sms and not a call!! That was again my own bad character!! No sooner i sent the message.. I got a reply!! And the very next weekend when i went back home, i happened to see her!! Her facial expression.. with her face slanted by a few degrees.. eyes filled with happiness.. with her eyebrows a bit lifted.. a small smile at the end of her lips.. with she thinking..."en kitta padichcha payyan.. innikki place aahittaan.. i feel happy for him!!" ... [in shorter words.. they call it 'perumidham'in tamil]. i cud sense it!! But.. i gave no expression of sensing them all.. [again bad??!!].. but still i could remember how she reacted that day after seeing me with a job in hand!!!

Well..After these 4 yrs of cold war [as my dad called it yday!!].. I finally went to her and spoke to her!! It was
for congratulating her for she got got the "gold medal" in medical college this yr!! She has proved that she is
still the best in studies!! I still cudnt prove that i can perform without her!! [except my second sem.. the only
sem i studied well to know if can perform well without her help!!]. And.. finally... yday!!

After thinking a lot standing in front of her house.. I jus made up my mind to ring her house's calling bell!! To my surprise it was she who opened the door [usually its her father who opens it]!! She was struck for a second to see me infront of her house after 4 yrs!! Her "Hiiiii....." after a few seconds with a broad smile and same enthusiasm which she had years back, wounded my heart very much by showing me how bad i was/am!! I was totally lost!! I was searching for words to congratulate her.. Atlast i could find some bits and bytes from my garbage (memory) and congratulated her! Her childish "thank youuuuu..." is still lingering in my ears!! She even called me in.. call it my ego again..!! stopped me from entering in!! She was in all smiles on seeing me, which continued to be the same till i left the place after getting her wishes for my new job!! That moment when she was awe struck, filled with all happiness, smiles all over face, with much enthusiasm, and loads of words to speak... That very moment!! I loved it a lot!! Such a precious moment in my life.. as any other big event in life!! Jus like the moment when my sister got the district third rank in her 10th exams!! I would give anything to get that moment back!!

But.. By this.. has the relationship reborn?? Am not sure.. I've made my initiative again!! It's she who should take it further!! Hoping the old phoenix to die and have a rebirth..

P.S.: I would like to thank my close friend "Tiger" for making such a thing possible in life. If not she, I would have never made this crude attempt of going to my old friend's house!! She educated me to think positively and approach things positively.. She made me think right!!! Thanks a lot Tiger!!!

Professional Career

It's 3 weeks now since I started with my professional career!! The field that I yearned for the past 8 years!!! Software Engineer!! Though it sounds quite normal in today's world, it was then regarded as a much coveted job which sowed seeds in me... Today I'm proud that I achieved my dream, aim, goal, whatever..!!

On July 2nd, 2007.. I joined Starent Networks! As my senior said in his speech during the interview process.. 3 things are really good in this company!! 3 things which every software professional would long for!!

1. People - people are really good.. The way they treat the freshers.. the way they guide us.. the way they move with us!! Amazing.. Even the most experienced and most senior people move very casually with all of us.. I like this kinda work environment a lot!!

2. Work - working on cutting edge technology is really great!! that too working on something that is compatible with the specifications that are going to be used only after 2-3 years and by millions and billions of people is really amazing!!

3. Salary - I'm yet to receive my first month's salary!! anyways.. the salary is as good as any other leading software company!!

I find myself lucky to be in a good and demanding field!! I should put all my efforts and take the best out of me!!

Few new flowers...

I've been longing for her frndship.. Right from 2nd sem!! I never thot i wud get close to her.. speak to her.. tease her.. fight with her.. make her cry.. get a lot of help from her!! It all happened during march of last year.. Really a cute, highly motivated, vivacious, often forgetting, tooo mature girl with so much expressions in face!!! Her dances.. amazing!! Unexpected moments this time last year.. Became a lot close to her.. really unbelievable!!

I never that she would become my boss!! Saw her a couple of times earlier.. Happened to message her as an accident.. Friendship blossomed!! Ideas matched.. A really hard working, out spoken, enthusiatic, patient teasing boss!! Unexpected boss.. I became a good disciple to her teasings... and hard working a bit..

If this was last yr.. This yr... 2 new flowers..

I always dreamt of being a frnd of her for years.. So cute.. so childish.. at the same time a bit mature.. so puny.. so much expressions in face.. a really gooood dancer!! I never thot i wud even speak to her.. but.. after IV.. things changed.. starting knowing more abt her.. started liking her a lot!! Such an amazing character!!

I never wanted to speak to her.. I never wanted to move with her.. but.. situations changed.. i found her to be good.. good enough to have friendship with!! I started speaking to her.. A nice, out spoken, talkative girl with a sarcastic look [at times]!!.. Things are really changing in my life...

Summers have become springs to me these years.. New flowers in my garden!! I'm jus flattened by their fragnances.. Four years of silence has started speaking.. communicating.. chatting nowadays!! Still a month more to go.. waiting for new flowers in my garden.. New and peculiar ones.. Peculiar in their taste, color, fragnance!!

P.S. : I used to say "I hate girls!".. But.. that's self defensiveness as my frnds usually say!!! I cud realise that only now... !!!

Woo a woman!

Yesterday i happened to read an article in Metro Plus. About what to gift a woman.. Geetha Padmanabhan makes a big list...

• Hidesign bag
• sleek leather coin purse
• stylish clothes
• Ferrero Rocher chocolates
• flowers
• invigorating spa
• state-of-the art camera phone with bluetooth (precisely N-series)
• corkboard
• elegant photo frame
• comfy pillow
• bottled condiments
• gym membership
• DVDs
• cellphone holder with a shoulder strap or velcro loop
• travelling shoes
• mini purse to hold credit cards
• a 'bit' of cash
• your time - best gift

Hmm... what it takes for a man?? A small, cute, true smile in his ladylove's lips!! -- 'Priceless'

I could just think of 'Mastercard' add which quotes the price of costly things and ends with a tag - 'priceless!'

P.S.: To read the article.. The Hindu, Metro Plus, Pg.2, 'For a woman who has everything'!!

What is love?

I was wondering about this kind of 'relationship' for a long time. The reason being.. 'Every relationship in this world is as a result of some need. Only a few stays on even after the needs are satisifed!' Even the relationship between a mom and her child is for the reason that a woman wants to become a mom. The relationship continues even after the need is satisfied. The relationship between friends are for some reason. For e.g., doing projects, partying out, shopping, etc.. So does love!!

But then.. What is love?? In my perception, love is something divine... [not an usual dialogue]. In layman's language, as my ethics sir quotes, it is an umberalla virtue!! It encompasses in it care, affection, 'feeling' of doing anything and everything for the other, demanding things, controlled by and having control over others, sharing the joy, sorrow.. But then.. Very few realise the true real meaning of love!!

During school days.. Teacher would have taught us.. "Love thy parents.. Love thy neighbor!!". People take it differently and start loving the girl next door.. Here love stands for the chemistry-biology-history-geography-maths between a foolish boy and an intelligent girl or an intelligent boy and a foolish girl!!

But then.. U say u love ur dad.. mom.. brother/sister... and also.. ur lady love!! How come the meaning can differ between two different individuals?? Is the word "love" overloaded?? [as in oops!]. Well.. When u love ur parents, siblings and others.. Wont u love ur friend?? A friend of opposite sex?? [i cant use boy friend/girl friend for it stands for a different meaning.. which too is concerned with another overloaded meaning of love!!]. A girl can say "I love u" pointing to another girl.. But.. She cant say "I love u" to a boy who is her friend!! For the society.. the meaning differs!! Though neither she nor he would think so!! She could jus say "I like u!!".. where like stands for liking something in him.. his character, attitude, behavior, dressing sense.. watever!! Wat if i tell my friend, who happens to be a girl, "I love u!!"?? Will this society leave me to say so??

Why dont people think it as jus a feeling rather than some kind of relationship?? I know i've changed the meaning i've so far mentioned.. But.. love is a feeling rather than a relationship as perceived by many fools!! It's jus something like fear, anxiety, 'happyness' [inspired by the pursuit of happyness], joy, sorrow.. Whereas.. Friendship is a relationship!! Friendship encompasses love in it... Which when expressed in taken in a lot bad sense!!

And there are people who give 2 different spelling for love.. and two meanings also!! For them.. 'Love' refers to the chemistry-...-maths between two worthless stupids who have the feeling without knowing wat it is!! and 'Luv' refers to something between friends!! Hmmm.. Even oxford and cambridge couldnt provide such meaning.. The signature in a mail.. If it has 'with love'.. it's the bullshit.. If it is 'with luv'.. It's friendship!!!

And.. For Gautam Menon, director of Kaaka Kaaka, Patchai Kili Muthu Charam, he uses a different meaning!! If u had listened to Jothika's proposal to Suriya for the second time at the harbor.. She expresses a lot and says a particular english sentence too fast!! "I want to make love with u!!".. This is wat Sarathkumar often says to Andrea in PKMC.. Wat does he mean by love then?? Dont Gautam love his mom and dad?? The same thing with a woman who quoted love as a combination of affection and sex in kumudham!!!

Hmmm...

But there are people.. who want to avoid the word 'love' for these reasons!! One of my friends told me.. "Ennakku avalai pidikkum.. Avalai thaan kalyaanam pannikanum aasai padaraen!!.. But.. If u term this feeling to be wat many worthless idiots say as "love".. Am not for it!!.. " Hats off to him!!

Me caught in the illusions and delusions of the world.. For this worthless matter!!!

Doodling

Doodling - my fav past time!! Which i usually do during class hours!!! It is by this i lose a lot of things..!! But then.. This makes me happy!!!

Last sem i happened to draw a few hairstyles!! Hairstyles of girls!!!! Myriad of hairstyles only for them... A few of those i like a lot... A few i hate.. The picture above shows a combination of both!!

Paruthiveeran

First day first show of Paruthiveeran at Albert theatre!!! Really really amazing movie!!! Really had a nice time with the new hero 'Karthi'!! What a man he is !!! His acting.. his speech.. his mannerism!!! Really matchless!!! Being a new comer doing this much is really praise worthy!!! I loved his Madurai accent (much becoz it's my native [;)] )!! Also his dance!! Mainly in 2 scenes.. One after proposing his lady love. And the other for the 'kuthu' song when he comes back from jail!! Really he rocks... Of all.. I like his body language!! Exactly portraying a 'Sandiyar'!!!! His eyes speak a lot just like his brother 'Suriya'!! Lovely eyes!!! He has really lived his character!!

[ a snap with Ameer when he came to my college ]

The director... Ameer!!! (Another Madurai veeran!!).. Really really really has done a great job!! Enjoyed every bit of the film!! But then.. the climax was a bit much aggressive.. Could have very well portrayed in a bit polished way.. But.. He justified his stand when he came to my college!!!

And the photographer.. Ramji!!! He too has done his job well!! The first song depicting the 'Thiruvizha' is really rocking!! He makes us stand among all those villagers... And the heat in the village of 'Paruthiyur' is very well depicted.

Chittappu 'Sevvaazhi'.. Really rocks like 'Karthi'.. His accent.. His mannerism.. makes everyone believe that he brought up 'Paruthiveeran' from his childhood!! Really a very good job by him!!

And the heroine.. 'Priya Mani'.. Has acted in this movie only!! She too has done her part well!!!

I used to find flaws in sequences / scenes in every movie!! This movie is an exception!! Ameer has very well taken care of everything!!

Kurukshetra Photos

Atlast I uploaded some of the best photos of Kurkshetra finally!! Atlast I completed the job of the Official Photographer at K! I would like to thank Varun for giving me an opportunity to freeze the moments at such a great show!! As an amateur photographer I could experiment a lot with those 1500 snaps I took!!!

Here are the links for the uploaded photos

http://kurukshetra-photos.blogspot.com to see a slideshow of the pictures.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/kurukshetra07 to see photos with description.

Hope you people would see them and comment on my job soon!!