It's more than an year now since I started drenching in love [this time its serious buddy!!]
This is not just another love story in some corner of the earth. Or the love story seen in those Selvaravagan and Gowtham Menon's movies. This is more special than any other love.
I had an obsession over her for years. Atleast to say, right from first year in my college life!! I never had an opportunity to speak to her. The facts and information from various sources across the world made me feel that she is better than most of the so-called "good-girls". As the days passed by, the love for her grew more and more without being expressed outside. I couldn't hold this love for long and I really wanted to tell her my pure love for her. This, but, initially required me to speak to her!!
I still remember the day.. oops night!! When me and one of my close friends were on a long walk on a busy street..!! I caught a glimpse of her in the large group of girls some few feet ahead of me. Her face glowed like never before in those troublesome deceiving tube lights. Of all those girls in that area, she alone caught my sight. So calm.. so simple.. so puny... she stood there before me!! I went upto her... was about to speak to her!! But nothing came out of my mouth!! I was speechless for it was the first time am going to speak to her in my life!!! We both stood there facing each other for 2 mins without speaking.. The silence broke when our happiness over flowed!! I started smiling at her... for she makes anyone and everyone smile!!! Her flashy smile can make anyone blind!!! [:-D] With a formal introduction, the night just passed away, but the happiness remained with me the whole night!! [This part of my life.. this little part.. is called the 'happyness' :D ]
The next day I had a chance to speak a bit more to her!! It took some time for me to understand her.. She was not that confusing kind. But it's the first time am speaking few words to a girl!! My earlier acquaintances with girls didnt help me much this time. Her responses were almost always similar with shorter sounds from her mouth. In those days I used to wonder if she knew few more words!! [:p]
The days passed with me getting more and more close to her. I started understanding her a lot and so did she.. The relationship went on to a new phase which we both never expected.. or atleast I !! The whole lot around us started associating myself with her. I got a new dimension because of her. A new dimension which I never thought I would ever attain. As seen in all movies, she brought in a lot of changes in me. The more changes in me made more people come near me. She witnessed my friends and my association with them. Their joy, happiness, enjoyment, teasers, birthdays, etc.. The relationship brought in more and more changes among us. She started liking me more. At times her unbelievable reactions would flatten me. At times her reactions would make me give a dull face. It become a habit for me to go out with her... rather she going out with me.. or watever!!! She gave a new name for me among friends. I was treated differently because of her presence near me. A new kind of respect(?!) came out of nowhere.
As the days went by, the devil in me started showing off. As it happens with anything, I started being possessive of her. "love la idhellaam sahajamappaa!!" but still my friends felt bad about it. I wont allow any of my friends to speak to her initially. bayam?? You can call it so!! [:D] It took a bit of time to lose that possessiveness. By the time possessiveness got down, dependency played a bigger role. I wanted her to be with me always. I felt she was the right companion to me. Neither she found fault with me.. nor did I!! But this dependency on her started growing like evil. This brought in a hiatus between us.
By the time my dependency on her decreased.. or atleast went away, a new problem came in. She was diagnosed to be suffering from the Alzheimer's!! Her memory power started reducing a lot and finally ended up knowing nothing about me. She lost all the love she had for me. She lost all the good thoughts about me. I was always new in front of her whenever she saw me!! I tried hard to get her back to normal. Till date I couldn't help it. Doctors say that she can live if we could get a donor for brain transplatation. But she will lose all the things she know about me. Anything and everything will start new in her life. Am too shocked at this point of time in my life!! Will she remember me after getting a new brain? Will I get a chance to rebuild the name I had in her? Will she love me?? or.. Will I running around the streets saying "gnaah gnaah gnaah..." or have a aluminium pot over my head and dance to make her remember me???
Oh.. I havent told you people who she is!! For those who have found her correctly.. kudos!! For the rest... she is...
my digicam Sony DSC W-5 !!!!!
Well yaah man.. who else gave me a name among my friends than her??? What new dimension I got than being a photographer??? Who else walked with me during all occassions in my college life?? Who else saw my happiness when I got placed and my cries when I was hit hard and was left with a fractured bone [:D] ???? She is the right pair for me.. Hope she gets back to normal and she remembers me to make me achieve more!! Atleast reach 10000 photos asap! :D :D [for those who dont believe.. try reading this post again!!! :) ]
This is not just another love story in some corner of the earth. Or the love story seen in those Selvaravagan and Gowtham Menon's movies. This is more special than any other love.
I had an obsession over her for years. Atleast to say, right from first year in my college life!! I never had an opportunity to speak to her. The facts and information from various sources across the world made me feel that she is better than most of the so-called "good-girls". As the days passed by, the love for her grew more and more without being expressed outside. I couldn't hold this love for long and I really wanted to tell her my pure love for her. This, but, initially required me to speak to her!!
I still remember the day.. oops night!! When me and one of my close friends were on a long walk on a busy street..!! I caught a glimpse of her in the large group of girls some few feet ahead of me. Her face glowed like never before in those troublesome deceiving tube lights. Of all those girls in that area, she alone caught my sight. So calm.. so simple.. so puny... she stood there before me!! I went upto her... was about to speak to her!! But nothing came out of my mouth!! I was speechless for it was the first time am going to speak to her in my life!!! We both stood there facing each other for 2 mins without speaking.. The silence broke when our happiness over flowed!! I started smiling at her... for she makes anyone and everyone smile!!! Her flashy smile can make anyone blind!!! [:-D] With a formal introduction, the night just passed away, but the happiness remained with me the whole night!! [This part of my life.. this little part.. is called the 'happyness' :D ]
The next day I had a chance to speak a bit more to her!! It took some time for me to understand her.. She was not that confusing kind. But it's the first time am speaking few words to a girl!! My earlier acquaintances with girls didnt help me much this time. Her responses were almost always similar with shorter sounds from her mouth. In those days I used to wonder if she knew few more words!! [:p]
The days passed with me getting more and more close to her. I started understanding her a lot and so did she.. The relationship went on to a new phase which we both never expected.. or atleast I !! The whole lot around us started associating myself with her. I got a new dimension because of her. A new dimension which I never thought I would ever attain. As seen in all movies, she brought in a lot of changes in me. The more changes in me made more people come near me. She witnessed my friends and my association with them. Their joy, happiness, enjoyment, teasers, birthdays, etc.. The relationship brought in more and more changes among us. She started liking me more. At times her unbelievable reactions would flatten me. At times her reactions would make me give a dull face. It become a habit for me to go out with her... rather she going out with me.. or watever!!! She gave a new name for me among friends. I was treated differently because of her presence near me. A new kind of respect(?!) came out of nowhere.
As the days went by, the devil in me started showing off. As it happens with anything, I started being possessive of her. "love la idhellaam sahajamappaa!!" but still my friends felt bad about it. I wont allow any of my friends to speak to her initially. bayam?? You can call it so!! [:D] It took a bit of time to lose that possessiveness. By the time possessiveness got down, dependency played a bigger role. I wanted her to be with me always. I felt she was the right companion to me. Neither she found fault with me.. nor did I!! But this dependency on her started growing like evil. This brought in a hiatus between us.
By the time my dependency on her decreased.. or atleast went away, a new problem came in. She was diagnosed to be suffering from the Alzheimer's!! Her memory power started reducing a lot and finally ended up knowing nothing about me. She lost all the love she had for me. She lost all the good thoughts about me. I was always new in front of her whenever she saw me!! I tried hard to get her back to normal. Till date I couldn't help it. Doctors say that she can live if we could get a donor for brain transplatation. But she will lose all the things she know about me. Anything and everything will start new in her life. Am too shocked at this point of time in my life!! Will she remember me after getting a new brain? Will I get a chance to rebuild the name I had in her? Will she love me?? or.. Will I running around the streets saying "gnaah gnaah gnaah..." or have a aluminium pot over my head and dance to make her remember me???
Oh.. I havent told you people who she is!! For those who have found her correctly.. kudos!! For the rest... she is...
my digicam Sony DSC W-5 !!!!!
Well yaah man.. who else gave me a name among my friends than her??? What new dimension I got than being a photographer??? Who else walked with me during all occassions in my college life?? Who else saw my happiness when I got placed and my cries when I was hit hard and was left with a fractured bone [:D] ???? She is the right pair for me.. Hope she gets back to normal and she remembers me to make me achieve more!! Atleast reach 10000 photos asap! :D :D [for those who dont believe.. try reading this post again!!! :) ]
